Ok, I wrote that other post and I didn't really even get at what I was feeling inside.
I am feeling tremendous doubt inside today.
Doubt that I will ever get the weight off or get back to karate.
It is so easy for other things to get in my way.
I have things in my way that are obvious like my weight and my physical ability. Then there are the unseen things that get in my way and those things are what kill me.
Those unseen things basically boil down to one thing.....allowing myself to put other things first. An example is that I always let family derail me. It isn't like I have a child to take care of. The family that derails me consists of a bunch of adults who really can take care of themselves. They don't actually need me for anything. It has always just been my job to take care of them and now it is a habit that is hard to break. Even yesterday, I could have gone to the dojo even if my husband wasn't feeling up to it. But, I just stayed home when I should have gone regardless of what hubby was doing.
The unseen things are the unconscious ideas you have in your life from which you need to break free: attitudes, habits, and beliefs about yourself. A big part of me believes that I am always going to be this hugely overweight woman, trapped in this body, running around after people (family) who don't even really need me, and that I will live a small, sad life. I think after all of the years of being sick and undiagnosed I developed this way of thinking about myself because I didn't dare hope for more. But now that I am getting my health back and I have a chance in life, I have to work my butt off to reach my goals. I can't allow the doubt to take over. I have to keep my focus.
We all have dragons to slay. The first thing you have to do is identify them. And, then you have to come up with a plan of action. I think in this blog I have identified my current dragons. Now I have to come up with a way to slay them. That is something I have to think about today. I still have a lot of doubt but I think I can look past it now and keep working towards my goals.
I hope that you are asking yourself what are the unseen things that are keeping you back from reaching your goals? What can you do to fight them? Now, go give that dragon a really hard time!!