I am finding my brain going in a million different directions lately. I can tell by my blog posts that my mind is all over the place. Obviously when you weigh over 300lbs you want to lose weight as quickly as possible. That is why I have been jumping from thing to thing.
The problem that I am now encountering is that for the last month (since I stopped doing Primal Blueprint and started eating more carbs and sugar) I am felling very badly. I have no energy. I feel sleepy all of the time. And, I am finding myself in the midst of a depression. I haven't even done kata since I started eating poorly again!
I have looked back in my daily journals. When I was eating primally, none of these things are issues. When I was eating enough protein, fats, and veggies I had lots of energy and a very positive outlook. And, if I read sections of my journal where I started eating sugar and carbs again my depression/anxiety seems to return. So, I can no longer allow myself to go into denial about this.
There is a very loud voice in my brain that says, "how can you live without junk foods like m&m's?" But, it is time for me to tell that voice to shut up!
I am coming up with a solid game plan to get back to health and exercise. This time it will be less about weight loss and more about health and exercise. Stay tuned for more.....