My husband and I spent the morning at a karate tournament. Being a black belt, my husband was a judge. I was a score/time keeper. I had a really great time for some reason. I was nervous and tense most of the time because being a score keeper involves math -not my favorite. But, it was really great being around all those black belts from various schools. Observing all of the different styles of martial arts and learning so much.
Having had this experience really got me drawn back to karate again. I think I have tried to forget about it for the last month or two. Not being able to go to class is very frustrating and discouraging to me (even though I get that my weight is an issue). For the last month or two I have been trying to convince myself that it is a really silly thing for a 40 something, 300 pound woman to want to go back to karate. Today's tournament made it very clear to me that I don't really have a choice. I love martial arts and it makes me incredibly happy. I have to try to get back to it. At the moment my only option is Monday night Tai Chi class at the dojo. So, Monday I will start back.